there is no winning,

its just how the game is played, we are built to fail, until we give up. the stronger the ego the longer we play. once you give up its a short road, the way is clear. like death, giving up is final. there's no more success or failure, good or bad, just surrender. it looks like defeat,but its actually the name of the game. the ego loses its power to motivate you, there's no prize anymore, the idea that something can be done is over.i dont have the answer, no one does, its all illusion, even the truth is a concoction the ego feeds on to keep you in control. someone else is the answer, or maybe your the answer, it doesnt matter because theres no question anymore. the whole game is ended because the ball is gone. there's no goal to make or run to score, the idea there was even a game is gone. what is left is the part you couldnt understand, the letting go of letting go. im not the expert here, this should be called egoment chronicles because its just what the ego wants, more stuff more ideas, more casting in the dark because that keeps you busy and occupied, anything but ending, being done, sat down finished over kaput. let go of anything, everything, everybody, anybody, its all a dream of a fool and the end of dreaming but theres no one to wake up.