what is your desire?

what is your desire? are you the one that has gone beyond? or are you the one in the pudding, in the soup of it? the longing the wanting the needing, its exquisite. the object doesnt really matter, its that feeling like you cant wait, you cant breathe you have to have it, the thing, the feeling of pure desire, flowing like hot lava through every fiber of your body. the body loves a good need, it has a purpose, the mind loves to dwell to obsess, its built for that, everything else disappears but the wanting, and then theres the getting, even if its just a bag at the store, or its that last piece of clothing, the satisfaction hits like a truck, the getting, the self is satiated, only to slowly realize that it wants more, soon, now, quickly. addiction, desire obsession wanting. these are the truth of life. its not the having or the using, those are small pleasures, like a nap on a warm day, but the heat of the need is like a sun going off in the brain and a bullet hitting the flesh, the sudden realization that the body is in need. the more the more the greater and greater urgency. soon its just a cycle of depression with small peaks as the urgency becomes dulled in the senses, overloaded, but it continues to seek that initial satisfaction, that orgasm of relief, that i got it, its mine, its safe, its done, but each time it returns, the beast of no end, more. so what happens when you try to break the addiction to the object, drugs, food, possessions, sex, money, it may stop the accumulation of that object but another takes its place. smokers know this, the weight gain, the shopping network, its all a charade, the need continues. the only relief comes when the need is stopped. and how is that accomplished? stopping what wants, becoming needless. Practice giving, sacrifice, unselfish behaviors, doing things not for you, but for others, without any reward but the doing. this is the quickest way, for you will find that doing for others creates joy instead of satisfaction and love instead of desire. its only the desire that wants something for its actions, its only desire that gets irritated at the delay or even the afterglow when the satisfaction is blunted by repetition. do what is needed, not by you, but for someone who is in need, of something you have. Give, offer, surrender to sacrifice and feel the true sense of who you are, not an obsessed creature but a being of luminous generosity and care, able to surrender your own feelings of want and need, and let go of the self, let go of the human demands for a higher purpose, the love for all and the end of possession and greed.