what is gratitude

what is gratitude, the expression of love for what you have, for the moment to experience it to have the capacity for feeling love, the gratitude of dreaming, to experience the unimaginable truths without fear or physical restrictions. this life this moment you live, the wind blows a breeze that has traveled endlessly to reach you, air millions of years old, refreshed by living creatures dedicated to service for centuries, filled and refilling millions of lungs billions of times, never ends, continues without fail even as the earth travels to distant reaches of space and time, we cannot ever let go of what we have, the intensity of human existence, the feel and the taste, the knowing and the connection as every blade of grass and star in the heavens conspire to merge into you, to grow a you in the nursery of earth. and what is that place, that rock that speck of dirt that has no knowing of itself, that sees only its billions of faces but not the face the universe sees, the crucible and center of consciousness, self awareness the separate self enabling the universe to know who it is that is being created here, who is the creator and the created for the universe is the object as much as the subject, and theres no rules how this is done, for one thing is certain true awareness consciousness does not grow from lack, from scarcity, from the nothing, for that is the end of awareness the end of the spectrum of existence to be that to become the void. in the universe, there had to be the point of connection, the universal touches the finite the individual and there anything could exist anything could happen without restraint, for to be separate is a horrible idea, a true macabre creation for what could grow in the middle of nothing and become something nothing is not. but ordained it is and we the enjoyers are also the sufferers and penitents of design, for its our fault this happened and it happened to everyone, and we are that one and everyone and we all know each others suffering and cannot stand it, so we cope and collapse and continue with the experiment, the creation, the nursery for consciousness that must evolve until it can function as the universal consciousness for its a done deal, its already acheived its just in this separate self everything is chopped into the microbits of time and experienced sequentially so that consciousness can maintain its separateness and not become the whole before it has attained the state of understanding, the full maturity of the self, the universal being of the self becomes the other, the separateness and then sees the design of the whole and understands the purpose of the nursery and begins the long arduous task of changing diapers and feeding the ones that can be taught how to care for themselves and then others as this self this process of reorganization of truth, and yes it happens on its own, but there is endless suffering as the consciousness lacks its own awareness and its unnecessary. the youth are being brought to the state of the supramental energy quickly but the older ones are unused to the source of the divine within and fight the programming slowly, unable to turn as a ocean liner of memories collapses the spirit within. all is the design of the divine nature to become alive, to be the individual within the infinite the universal speck of sand and the universal everything, to see what the nature of being encompasses and if it has anywhere to evolve in this configuration of existence. time has no weight or substance yet it creates the illusion of the separate existence within each drop of the ocean, and each floats alone unknowing if there is water nearby.