there is a world of belief

there is a world of belief and unquestioned denial that has become very popular, that if someone has written something and they are a recognized authority it is the new dogma. but what about the internal truth, the trust in ones own heart. when the words follow your heart appear, I see a lot of struggle for someone to be absolutely truthful to themselves, no matter the consequences, but a lot of "sages", "gurus", and the like interpret this to mean follow my teachings no matter what your heart may feel. it is in the following of your own heart, not the impulse or the infatuation that comes with early awakening, but rather the truth in each person that they feel something they are taught or told to do or is required is not in their own heart but instead they are being indoctrinated to believe it in order to be acceptable to the group, the teacher, the dogma, but in their own heart they feel something else, a different calling. its not that as soon as someone feels a reaction they should follow that impulse, but as one matures there is a definite path that is their own and one thing about the journey, there is only the one making the journey, its a solitary passage. from the time I was 7 years old, I have felt a deep connection to a universe that is essentially created for the purpose of awakening the spirit within to its full potential. there is no end to the miracles and forces at play to ensure the success of this work. in India the idea of tolerance is a living truth as Christian hindu moslem and a million deities and guru's co exist. everything is allowed as long as there is sincerity of the heart. some practice self denial, others complete self absorption. somewhere in between is where most are. surrender, devotion love are the staples of the heart, not of any one group or teachings. for some a living master is needed, for others a spiritual guide and others the unmanifest force alone is required. and sometimes the heart makes no sense but must not be denied, for it is the intuition that guide correctly, not the mind or the vital emotion. let that which is your internal compass set you on the correct path for you. the most difficult part of the journey is realizing that there is no authority here, no hewn from stone commandments or modern pages printed in pixels floating on some bed of electrons, all is the illusion, all is turning you to trust the one within. sometimes its just a mess to leave and start over, but how else can the first step be taken, for to be in lock step with everyone else means you're probably going to stay there unless you take some action. there is much good in groups,  friendship and sharing common goals and support, its the most popular form of religion and self improvement, to bond with a group ethic and worship some goal greater than yourself, learning humility and gratitude. but as time goes on you notice, there is no movement, only the same faces the same issues the creation of more stringent requirements, the election or appointment of the most zealous to lead in the stead of the divine, the teachings become required and everyone is judged based on their adherence to the requirements, and soon the work becomes indebtedness and imposition rather than from the heart as the spirit expands beyond the structure. then is the time when the end is come and the heart demands the truth be told. don't fear, for what is born is stronger and more alive more aligned with the spirit, not empty words and fear based decisions. to truly walk alone is to be undeniably true and what is gained is not love but truth, and as you align yourself with truth, then all that is will align with you. for it is in the realization of the self that all the illusion falls away and the truth shall set all men free of the bondage of their beliefs. trust the soul within, even when it is the most difficult and it will lead you to what is needed to take you further down your path. for me it is the most difficult for what is love and life but the blood of the heart, and how can one be alive without blood, but it is done and life goes on, as does the truth of my sadhana, for in life you can only find what you are looking for, at some point you stop looking and just be and then the heart can be heard.