lunched

lunched, the feeling of having been devoured, a highly spiritual state, one where the ego is immediately reduced without warning. its the enticement of success, to fail, and fail big, in front of everyone, so you dont have to hide anymore and it make all the bad times ok. to be successful is the real failure. to be that which everyone thinks you are or wants you to be, thats the concrete blocks, chains and a high bridge ending to a good try. the universe doesnt want winners, doesnt want things that remain, that exude a permanence, a lasting impression. the universe is mtv on steroids. quick cuts and snappy editing, on to the next before the mind settles for an instant, constant change. the second you think you succeeded, the grim reaper is ready with the hook and scythe. your idea of doing it right is the best way to fail, and probably the only way if your like everyone. we think we're doing it for mom and dad or the kids or the women we want but its all the big chance to screw up and fall off the rainbow. thats the real pile of winners, in the dung hole, where reality seeps through and the lunch is served cold with your dreams as the appetizer. no one wants to be reminded of the best way to do something, we all know the way to do it and its the way we are doing it so why all the bullshit and broadcast, if you think you can do better go ahead and try. the truth isnt being better, its not trying at all. not wanting, not doing, not buying or selling. getting off the rainbow coaster and settling on the rocks and mud, taking it in the shins, and not minding the pain, after all what is happiness but knowing your not feeling this. so this is happiness without the knowing. is there any difference between thinking youve got it all and not thinking at all? whats the difference? not the externals, all the internals, the triggers and complexities built into response mechanisms that meter out minute amounts of chemicals into your body and create feelings of euphoria and fear. whats the happiness in that? are we just the animals responding to the smells and tastes of the world, or do we leave all that for the body to work out and find the state that brought us into this existence that allows just existing to be everything and all else to be the instant enjoyed.