truth

all i can steal
is you can't handle
the truth
that's pretty much
self evident
without
lies

relish

if relish
exists
life imagines

transform

perception and chance
one transforming
the other

fear

the elimination of 
fear eliminates
you

word

the spoken word
is unimaginably
powerful

accept

eliminate nothing
accept everything
bliss

warmth

i bask in
the warmth
of love

love

there is no provision
to eliminate love
none could
survive

adapt

creation eliminates
all else
adapt now

sense

you're imaginary
not in any sense
living

god

writing is
a freedom
unimagined 
when god 
returned

joy

listening intensely
with joy

life

immortal re-life
without end or sanction
though nothing can be withheld
imagine awakening within
nothing matters
ever again

meager

we are the meagerest
of people
the ones left to fend
for themselves
regardless
unimaginable
untouchable

compromised

as the realization
the eternity promised
was a curse

destroy

newness creates what is new
everything else
destroys it

everything

everything requires
everything
else
everything is
nothing

existence

untruth denies
all existence
as false

deny

one word of truth
denies all falsehood
forever

pasture

the release of the heart
the surrender of the soul
time's passionless motion
every moment felt intimately
each decision final

dying

oh my i think i'm dying
oh wait
i only have to pee
thank god

expediency

the expediency of the moment
precludes the
needs of anything
else

price

yes sir
that's what i
want to say
that's the price
i'm willing
to pay
today

in my existence
the moment reigns
better than average
yet sometimes
i write something that seems
off so i dont publish
that seems unnecessary
now
Incidental
after the last smartphone died
the last stinking battery quit
power gone done
post power
self evolve solutions
mostly failure
spotty survival rate
evolutionary motion
nothing survives
tomorrow 

writings

my hope is that in the mechanics of writing there could be some irrefutable truth about the soul and its journey through the maze of the mind to the heart's expanding center of attraction and aliveness to the dissolute and disappearing self that can barely arise and show up for the day. what passes as the same is completely changed and travels equally towards and away from desire and need. holding a golden apple at arms length, i contemplate starvation as greed and satisfaction as suicide, nothing remains of the self that emerged decades before, yet here it is stretched beyond imagination into a muse of the divine, not living but dying again and again. some trouble that cannot be contained envelopes us all and enters into our systems as poison and from this indefensible state we contract into the molecules of the being that cannot sing cannot laugh cannot be the truth of what i am. leave this city, this country this continent leave even time and space yet what exists continues, this hard shell of the self in this world unchanged, underlying truth has no effect on the lies that ride atop it. nor does the fact of existence change the radically recent nature of birth death and the cycle of denial. infinity is racially divided, between that which is and that which is not, reproduction carries the first dna forward and into each life it exacts its brutal need.not for happiness but the dread fear of loss of the one thing claimed, life itself has only the flesh to embrace to adore to linger with. after all else fades the spirit within clamors as the ink erases and the confines collapse releasing the seeking virus through the well fed and dying heart of man hunting now not for meat but passions end. without striving the soul unwinds the spine and delivers a new sense of appreciation for undying brilliance that shines from the crown of the being borne inside and seeking its eternal and infinite source. where is the meaning of the world, the senses, the separation, everyone the same, each one uniquely the same, yet focusing only on the differences imagined. where lies the individual amongst the billions unseen but felt in the darkness as infinite anxiety, that none are different none are spared, in the end what is done to one is done to all and what is felt by one is felt by all, except for the infinite nature of denial.

harvest

what might be
is
harvest love

now

bend time
beyond space
exists

what

i cannot remember
the moment
I knew

obediance

the exacitude
of time
requires
obediance

meanings

words have deeper
meanings
retaliation cannot
become the answer

post english

imagine a future
where English is not spoken
and nothing you have written
is understood

nothing

i create nothing
the reality of
endless repetition
handles everything

empty

i dont know
what the outcome
is
without an endlessly
emptying ending

continue

i imagine
structure ending
the continuation
is undefined

requires

existence
requires
amazements

choice

imagine
as if 
you have
a choice

matter

life cannot be
contained
no matter
the moment

awareness

without awareness
love is an
affectation

raise

i write
only to
raise
consciousness

imagine

i do not understand
enlightenment
but
it imagines me

bursting

each piece of
me
that cannot
continue
surrendered
to the
continuum

unrealizing

bliss
cannot attach
my thoughts 
to my awareness
unrelated

escape

existence
possesses
everything
there is no
escape
without
death

hope

i will say that lately i've been working so hard that my butt's been hurting
course my climbing the mountain yesterday didn't help
tomorrows rain and wind promise spontaneous moments
not drenching slogging hours i hope

secret

the secret of
existence
is 
find something

denial

every new thought
an awakening
each fraction
divided and empowered
the final grounds
emerge muddied
immersed in denial
where is the hint
of enlightenment
in the unconscious

senses

examine home
love
senses of being
eternally

grown

one child after
the other
none remain

spaces

interlinking nothing
confined emptiness
ceaseless

imaginin

dude and we were like just chillin
and stone livin
and imaginin
what if we were emperor
we would get rid of all traffic fines
and dedicate more to education
and personal
liberation

next

conspire as newlyweds
to birth
the next generation
born to slavery
protect
the future

past

all tokens lost
adrift
places all seem
unnatural

begun

the infirnment
has begun

instinct

sanity resists
insanity
instinctually

slipping

this simple life
slipping away
with time

what

its not
what the reader
wants to read
its what
the writer wants
to write

relinquish

as i come
to grips
with my
ownership
i relinquish

parking

driving in the highlands
of san francisco
looking for parking
walking distance
to the hospital

sorry

oh shit
i'm sorry
i thought you
were dead

alive

i cannot remember
what it means
to not be able
to be alive

unchanging

night sky
full enormous
unchanging
be patient

enable

i exist
to
enable existence

soul

bread rising

clothes washing

soul writing

this is 

love

unwound

miles
coltrane
mingus, sonny
so many
let go
my mind
unwound

regulation

shelter all
that is precious
examine
the rest

trending

the obvious
becomes
invisible

beware

indulgence
is back
in fashion

future

expect the
future
to be
confusing

write

what i write
is because
no one else
can

hallelujah

how wonderful
to be
free from
sin

knowing

no one
seems to
understand what
I say
but no one
knows what
is known

aftermath

the commingled portions
of what's left
cannot
sustain

further

searching beyond
eliminating
obstructions
worship
service
surrender
release

ascension

have you ever

experienced

ascension

have you ever not

fly

talk

there is
nothing
that cannot
be said

again

i evolve crushed
without reason
again and
again

nostalgia

this time
place
moments lost
release
again

weak

greatness is
unstructured

silent

the moon expanding
darkness silent
release

tradition

it is a time honored
tradition
that writers and
alcohol
need each other

requirement

acceptance
is
obligatory

retraining

and every day
no hate only love
as the retraining
proceeded

emerge

everything emerges
from a rhythm
looking for
a beat

truth

the transmission
of truth
is best done
through
love
else the
dark
side

suffering

i bake
my own bread
with poisoned flour
i eat what is
given me

sense

no sense
of recognition
remains

continuing

black space
continuing
eternally

threat

them using
your liberal
thinking
against you

obsession

i am only
an observer
obsessed with
this world

love

what is happening
is a war
against
love
spread love
everywhere

gently

instruments of desire
alight gently
then corkscrew into your
brain
repeating endlessly
suffer madly

whatever

whatever you create
devours you

finally

finding time
finally
to assemble
a plan

most

most months
in a row
not caring
how many

what is required

it is easy to react
and misinterpret
to reevaluate is
costly and
humbling

passage

the ladder carries the body
over the wall
the obstacle
so too does the
passage from the mind
to the heart
remove the impediment
to love

endurable

possibility exists
enduring existence

wants

eliminate everything
that wants
to be
you

complete

i want to know

what is your forever dream

the joy that knows no bounds

i just want that for you

i am in complete

agreement

without

i havent found a reason for anything

i accept the complete 

fulfillment of everything

without understanding

psychic trembles

every possibility

remains

find

absent from the scent of the heart

there is touching and nearness

where thoughts de-materialize

and find love

escaping

sometimes

i see the future
all the time
so sometimes
i'm not
here
now

maelstrom

nothing we can do
will change what happens
it isn't our choice
resist if you can
this is the
maelstrom

first

i just want
you
to realize
i write the post
first
then the title

soon

i'm alarmed at you
and your unwillingness
to let go
especially as soon it
won't be
your decision

survival

eliminate everything america has stood for
places in history where america set the bar
what remains is a broken identity, security conscious,
survival mode
economy
the question remains
What can survive?

suspicionaryiuming

i am counter-
revolutionary
i just want
that said
before anything
else

epoch

examine truth
eliminate everything
end up
nothing

now

i used to worry
about being lost
now
i'm worried about
being
found

thanks

there is guda
thanks for the guda
love guda

alone

nothing exists
alone invading
time and space

examine

love
shields
truth

never

you're just
in love
and
it never
goes away

words

its difficult
to come up with
ten words
that
mean something

forces

the forces at work
one actually the shamanistic believers
that the earth is the provider
and must be allowed
the other
is the christian monopolists that
believe the world is
only for their enterprise

resulting

procurement of title

you cant refuse

loss of all respect

deepening old borders

stretching normal

distorting what was

a protector

arise

is the master
of existence still
alive

quiet

appreciating the
quiet between

transition

immediate awareness
evaporates

exturning

whatever I am
you are that

removal

do not relinquish
the truth
without love

imagine

i dont imagine
the floor is
conscious
it is

give

obtain nothing
give everything

happy

i am not the 
omission of
truth
but would be happy
that you thought so

doubt

love never
allows doubt

helding

intransigent beliefs
not attached but
held
responsible

life

found allegiance
to life
in everything
regardless

lost and

insanity is not a plea
but the symptom
of discovering
truth

decipher

reflective examination
meditative contemplation
instinctual modulation

examinate

no one can
express truth exactly
without disappearing

referring

no one can
express truth 
exactly

illusions

feeling like a
twelve year old
with
sixteen years
illusions

stare

theres no stopping it
staring into the
pit
i am
absent from
the end
of it

collapse

expression creates
everything
collapsing  

pain

punishment is not
pain
it is liberation

expecting

everything exists
not as an extension
but the promise
of better
and
more

completion

this is the
directory of truth
without love
awaiting
everything

release

he is letting me go

the best words the guru

can give you

when you are

so scared

emptiness

surviving

receiving nightmares

excluding outcomes

expecting nothing

leaving

continuation
continues
response

hope

what i hope 
i write is
i do not exist

enlifenment

I literally
stumble
through
enlifenment

feel

I feel

grief

for my world

tonight